mental whatnot
i mentioned in my last post how i'm pretty fucked up in the brain... insane in the membraine.. or something... so i thought, why not talk about it!!! YAY!
so i want to say, i don't have it as bad as many others that i know and whatnot, but honestly whatever i got going on isnt normal so overall i think it's best i start listing off my issues...
one thing ive struggled with a lot of my life is auditory halucinations. it's nothing too serious, its a lot of people saying my name... it used to happen a lot in public, but that's started to die down !! yay!! now it mainly happens when im at home, i'll hear people i know say my name... shouting it even.
now, you might be saying, "juno!! what if someones actually calling your name?" and to that, my friend, i say they arent!! this mainly happens with people that arent around anymore, arent in my city, or just arent near me at the moment.
most of the time i tend to just ignore it, but sometimes it sounds too loud and too real that it makes me panic.. i start to worry that i'm in a coma and thats my parents calling out for me and it kind of just drives me mad for a few minutes... i don't really remember how i stop freaking out over it but hey!! i do stop!!!
i used to have visual hallucinations growing up but those have thankfully gone mostly away!! i do see shit in the dark more than the normal person does but honestly it doesn't bug me.. we r #chilling
something else you might notice is i'm like.. extremely paranoid. it's not as bad as i think it is, but also that's just me being... paranoid. LOL.. ever since covid hit i've been so scared and freaked out over everything, it sucks.. i've gained a lot of phobias since as well, mainly a big phobia of germs and whatnot... blegh.. i'm also extremely medically paranoid!! that isnt fun like at all either...
i can't really. remember anything else at the moment... most my blogs are probably going to end like this. that's embarassing... kms... goodbye, i love you and leave you!!! xoxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxalalalalalalalallaa